Catching Up
2012 has never been my greatest year. I've gone through several trials and such, from simple self-doubts to life-threatening diseases.
At start of the year, I've been in an emotional mess. Being a newbie on the world of professionals, it hit me real hard to see a colleague close to you leaving for a greener pasture. I've felt broken by the thought of someone dear to me leaving since I'm the type of person to choose having a small but intimate circle of friends, rather than many but distant ones.
The midyear is not good either, I'd been very much excited to watch the Maroon 5 concert being an avid fan of the band and knowing that the concert will be held on a date close to my birthday, I quickly secured my place on the concert and treat is as a gift to myself. But as the expected date is nearing, I had been experiencing stomach aches more often. And before I knew it, I was confined in a hospital due to pancreatitis. Not knowing how grave I was in at that moment, I still held on to that dream that I would be able to see that much awaited concert. But as time goes by and seeing no progress nor any sign of being released from the hospital, I chose to sell my tickets to my friends and use the money for my bills instead. Up to now, it still regret not seeing that but what could we do, other than just wait for another opportunity to grab.
This disease has taken its toll on me, the days have passed to weeks then to months and before I knew it, I've been in the hospital for 3 months. Mixed emotions came to me, as I have never been in a hospital longer than a couple of days and the ambience of the hospital doesn't help either. Being born with 5 siblings and in a middle-class family, of course the bill I was taking is getting higher by the second. Though my mom would not let me see her worrying where to get the money to pay the hospital, it took me just a moment to see through it. Hopefully, the doctor suggested for me to just rest on our home while waiting for my open wound to close. And so, my hospital life was stopped.
But hey, just lying for three whole months has its disadvantages. I grew weaker and unable to do any locomotion. Just sitting is enough to drain whatever energy I have stored in me. Constant exercises had somehow helped me get over it. Of course there are still some things that I cannot do at the moment, and it pains me to see that whatever boring life I had before just gotten worse now. Not to add that all the money that I have saved from my work are decreasing by the moment. Of course, my friends and relatives are there to extend whatever help I may be needing but the thought that I have to rely on everyone else on every single thing makes me feel very much of a burden.
Up to now, I'm still fixing myself and continuously fighting over this mess I'm in but it would not take me long to overcome this kind of situation. A disease and disability like this cannot take the life I'm taking now that I have lots to catch up to everyone more than ever.
At start of the year, I've been in an emotional mess. Being a newbie on the world of professionals, it hit me real hard to see a colleague close to you leaving for a greener pasture. I've felt broken by the thought of someone dear to me leaving since I'm the type of person to choose having a small but intimate circle of friends, rather than many but distant ones.
The midyear is not good either, I'd been very much excited to watch the Maroon 5 concert being an avid fan of the band and knowing that the concert will be held on a date close to my birthday, I quickly secured my place on the concert and treat is as a gift to myself. But as the expected date is nearing, I had been experiencing stomach aches more often. And before I knew it, I was confined in a hospital due to pancreatitis. Not knowing how grave I was in at that moment, I still held on to that dream that I would be able to see that much awaited concert. But as time goes by and seeing no progress nor any sign of being released from the hospital, I chose to sell my tickets to my friends and use the money for my bills instead. Up to now, it still regret not seeing that but what could we do, other than just wait for another opportunity to grab.
This disease has taken its toll on me, the days have passed to weeks then to months and before I knew it, I've been in the hospital for 3 months. Mixed emotions came to me, as I have never been in a hospital longer than a couple of days and the ambience of the hospital doesn't help either. Being born with 5 siblings and in a middle-class family, of course the bill I was taking is getting higher by the second. Though my mom would not let me see her worrying where to get the money to pay the hospital, it took me just a moment to see through it. Hopefully, the doctor suggested for me to just rest on our home while waiting for my open wound to close. And so, my hospital life was stopped.
But hey, just lying for three whole months has its disadvantages. I grew weaker and unable to do any locomotion. Just sitting is enough to drain whatever energy I have stored in me. Constant exercises had somehow helped me get over it. Of course there are still some things that I cannot do at the moment, and it pains me to see that whatever boring life I had before just gotten worse now. Not to add that all the money that I have saved from my work are decreasing by the moment. Of course, my friends and relatives are there to extend whatever help I may be needing but the thought that I have to rely on everyone else on every single thing makes me feel very much of a burden.
Up to now, I'm still fixing myself and continuously fighting over this mess I'm in but it would not take me long to overcome this kind of situation. A disease and disability like this cannot take the life I'm taking now that I have lots to catch up to everyone more than ever.
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